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Ok, so ive been thinking. Im thinking that maybe i was wrong about malcolm x. I mean, yes he was doing the one eye reference, he was a high profile nation of islam-ist. And the X in the name and all. But maybe, im thinking, maybe he was just duped. Maybe he was just naive. I already told you we shared the same birth signs and that i can sooo relate to him. So if he was anything like me, then he was just an activist, wanting to put his explosive, powerful energy into bettering peoples lives and create a fairer society. You dont even really need to be naive to not expect the illuminati to be behind these organisations. Those suckers cover their tracks so well. You see an organisation that seem to be supporting the underdog and you join it, you dont question their sincerity. Thats normal. In fact, his reasons for leaving the nation of islam may well have been because he found out. The autbiography does reveal his heartbreak and disillusionment with Elijah Mohammad. So i appologize for upsetting so many of you. Honestly. I myself have become so detached I hardly care anymore who is what. The ”Indigo Nine” in the blog title stands for the indigo aura of us spiritual warriors for justice (which i share with many, many of you) and the nine stands for the numerological humanitarianism that is repeated all over my numerological charts. That is why i related to malcolm. But all of that has changed since i named the blog. I am no longer indigo and although my numbers dont change, i am really detached from any of the world’s issues. I used to be unhealthily concerned for people and so acutely felt the pain of people all over the world that any war, any societal problem or stuff like that could get me to go berzerk (how do you spell that word?). It was a really big problem. I needed to save the world for my own mental well-being. Now i am so detached. I’d like to think i see the bigger picture. I have no less love for people, only now i have love for the ”bad guys” too. Anyway, thats beside the point. I wanted to apologise about jumping to conclusions about malcolm x. Perhaps there are still people in media who have honest intentions. But why bother with that when such beautiful people are all around us anyway? The light is everywhere if you only wish to see it. ;)
Some of you may have been thinking, as i have, that getting detached and spiritual and all that cannot be good for all the reforming and justice you would have brought about in your older, peace warrior ways. So i wanna share with you a personal experience that would illustrate how getting detached can achieve so much more for the world.
I am leading a project in which we are writing a book for teenagers about abuse. It is a large scale initiative to bring about a change in society, in our cultures and in our mentalities. The old me would have gotten so political and so venomous, so partial and so emotional. The result would probably alienate some people. Today i can approach the issue with an attitude that says, we’re not looking for villains and victims, we are not looking to divide, we’re looking to heal communitie s and go beyond the problem into a better future. We want to spread awareness and help people concieve of a better reality. Nobody will be alienated and we will not be supporting pain bodies (wink to eckhart tolle). If i may say so myself, the idea is great, now we just gotta get it down into a book. I have been getting lots of signs lately related to writing and the throat chakra so the soft voices are telling me to write it myself. I never saw myself as a good writer (except in 3rd grade, i had the best funny stories in my class. I was hilarious. My friends said so.) but i can express myself quite clearly when i am inspired so i am hoping to do that, with your supportive intentions inshallah. I hope everyone knows how powerful their positive intentions are. Anyways, end of my example.
Thank you for coming and having us share a few warm, fuzzy moments together.
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Greetings Dear Sister, I appreciate the fact that you were willing to come back and correct yourself on Malcolm and to your Credit, for seeing his genuine spirit and how sincere he was. That I really respect. Lately I have never had to defend Malcolm so much in My life especially with all of these false accusations with no proof coming out. i.e Marrable Mannings book. I have to check out some more of your reads. I found your page while I was doing a google search and your article initially enraged me lol! But thats fine I needed to be woken up better that than a "Intergrated Cup of Coffee" for the jolt. Once again thanks for the read.I will be reading more of your work take care.
ReplyDeleteGreetings to you too brother :)
ReplyDeleteThats really warm of you. I see that you see with your heart, and when you see with your heart, you know who is genuine and not. I havent always looked at things with my heart, i have become defensive by all the lies and ill intention. You could say i was disillusioned. The truth is, many leaders of organizations that are supposedly for the good of the people are really just exploiting the very people who need the most help. Like Elijah Muhammad for example. But Malcolm was just like us.
I dont know if the defense position is very effective in this case. I feel like those who understand will understand, and those who dont, wont. And either way it doesnt matter. Its like with Michael Jackson, if you look at him with a pure heart, you understand him so well, whereas when you look at him with a polluted heart, or thru your intellect, he doesnt make sense at all. I have moved back into my heart, and the world looks so much more beautiful from here, but few people understand me anymore. Apart from children. But thats beside the point.
Thanks for your warm energy!
Emine